Dip your toe
Perfect happiness is having resources for adventures, friends and family to share it with. I fear dying alone. I deplore my own need for external validation and I loathe hypocrisy. I most admire my friend Sian, her grace, her courage under fire. My beach hut is an extravagance but I love to share with friends. Current mood is expansive and fulfilled, however surgical menopause means that can change like the weather. I don’t think virtues overrated, though the trend for complaining about virtual signalling bothers me, if we done signal virtues how will they be shared. Let your virtue sign like Batman’s searchlight so others can find you. I try to be honest I think a gentle truth is better than a white like, but I lie on occasion about my pain and energy because I get sick of it. I don’t love my hair it’s fine a flyaway and I think I’d like serpents and turning people to stone. I don’t think I despise anyone but I don’t like cruelty or malice. I like vulnerability in men and strength in women. Methinks the term methinks is unpardonable. Lu Lud is my greatest love, my rock and my safe harbour. I’m happiest in a circle of women sharing. I’d love to be able to thow a pot. If I could change one thing about myself I would make it easier to be gentle on myself, rest more. I’m proud to have achieved raising a fine young man. When I die I would like to come back as a cat owned by my husband, I’ve had a luxurious live but I think Tink had just a sliver more (not that I am jealous). I always long to live by the sea and maybe I’ll retire to warmer climes, but for now I am well satisfied with my beach hut. I most treasure my phone to keep me connected, it doesn’t have to be new or or constantly upgraded but it’s my tether to the people who matter. The lowest depth of misery is not knowing how much you’re loved, when you truly believe those you love would be better off without you, that is always a lie. My favourite occupation was Youth Worker but community organiser and Blue Organiser have coming up close. I think my most marked characteristic is my ability to listen to and connect people. I value friends who show up. I love Our Lady Sylvia Plath my favourite author, poet and muse. My hero is Druss the Legend. I identify with Margery Kemple loud, mystic writer who upset the status quo and the patriarchy would rather burn but had created her own authority. A real life hero is Greta Thunberg, but she is like many young people, trying to make a change. I love the secret names we gave ourselves Demi and Trinity (almost a life time ago). I dislike liars and cheaters. My greatest regret is a sadness that hurts too much to dwell too long on. I want to die old and fat and surrounded by lots of grandchildren who have many happy memories of me. My motto’s “Any act of goodness that I can do let me do it now for I may not pass this way again”.
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